It was such a pleasure to work with Kirby. Even watching her in this video now I can see just how far she’s come in her healing process.
I write this because on a planetary level, we are all going through a sacral chakra healing.
Have you been feeling more emotional lately, or have had pain in the lower portion of your stomach?
Have old, emotionally charged memories surfaced?
If so- you're undergoing the healing.
Part of being human presently enforces us to bury our true natures to the point where we don't know who we are or how we feel. Numb the pain mentality is prevalent. We do what we can to get through our days, sometimes and then we go through bouts of frustration, stress and we don't know why.
Our sacral chakra is the energy center that sits at our lower abdomen. For men and women, it governs sexuality, creativity, emotions, intimacy and money. It also is the center that can be blocked by shame and guilt. For men, it also can be blocked because it is feminine and many men are taught through tenants of masculinity to repress feminine energy. For women, we are taught to disown our natural feminine in a femininity negating culture where feminine sexuality is denied (slut shaming etc..) and we're taught to be ashamed of our femininity (think about the embarrassment and shame tied to menstruation). Many women in toxic industries that disown femininity because feminine traits are "weak" and women must act like men in order to get ahead, will often develop illnesses in feminine areas like ovarian cysts, etc because that's a metaphysical extension of the denial and repression and self-hatred re: femininity.
We hold our true sexual identities here- that which brings us pleasure. And pleasure brings us back to ourselves and to our source. I'm not talking addiction riddled, over the top pleasure, but basic pleasures of being human including a healthy sexuality. What we regard as "kinky" or "queer" or that which isn't within the culturally defined box of "normal" sexuality we often repress or cover up with shame, which then distorts, blocks and alters the energy flow of our sacral chakra, which then blocks all which is associated- creativity AND money and access to SOURCE energy, AND intimate relationships. Yes- distortions with one will impact the other. Not to mention, distortions in one energy center will affect the quality of the flow through all other centers. This impacts internal balance and wellness. Ideally we want to be a clear channel so source energy can flow equally through all parts of us.
That's why for those of you who truly have a submissive nature (and arguably many men have more difficulties with admitting to this because of what's expected of them in society and different industries) will often have blocked sacrals that then block the energy flow into other aspects of their lives. This is when disease happens, or especially pertaining to the sacral, sometimes men can develop sexual dysfunctions because of blocked emotions they're unconsciously not allowing themselves to process, or, more literally, they cannot "connect" with their partners because the fear of intimacy is too strong and has not been dealt with.
If you are a submissive, choose the dominant that resonates with you (and say it's mutual), allowing yourself to submit to not just him/her/they, but to YOUR true nature will relieve a ton of the blockages and resistance in your sacral chakra related to shame and repression. Arguably shame and repression surrounding sexual identity is the biggest thing holding back the evolution of humanity. We need to embrace our sexual natures in a healthy way in order to become fully EMBODIED.
This requires true vulnerability, not just to self, but to him/her/they. Vulnerability is the precursor to self-awareness, connectedness and surrender. We can't receive if we aren't vulnerable, just like we can't be perceived if we aren't. If we don't allow ourselves to be seen, we'll be invisible to ourselves and everyone else. And surrender is the ultimate precursor to liberation, which is the pathway to the highest vibrational state of peace and nonresistance.
When we get there, all things open up, including our hearts.
Have you been looking for meaning for a while? Do you feel lost? Well this is how you find it.
The reason why I write about trauma even while knowing it may turn many of you off is because so many of us don't recognize the traumas we endured (I know many of you expect to be reading masturbatory fodder). As human beings we are all traumatized in modern society. We just accept it as "normal" when normal is a blanket term designed by the very systems that traumatize us and keep us functioning below our consciousness threshold.
How could we identify it during times when our agency was stripped away from us and it's all we knew? How can we identify it when the perpetrators staunchly denied it to be true?
By showing you how I work through my own traumas, I intend to help you identify the traumas in your life. When we identify the traumas we faced, we are able to take back our own agency in those moments, recover a lost piece of ourselves (or better define who we are aside from the trauma-induced behaviors we thought were a part of us) and become whole- the way we're meant to be. We lose pieces of ourselves to traumas because they in ways, break our spirits into pieces and we give away our power bit by bit. We don't even realize how much of us is missing until we begin to rescue all those pieces.
If we live our lives numbing and being blind to our traumas, we never ever heal.